by Kevin Henneberger
When I started my internship 12 weeks ago, I was searching for inspiration.
The reason I started my summer “searching for inspiration” was to grow spiritually and to find new motives. I felt that my social and academic lives were unfulfilling and that a change was necessary. Inspiration would be the way to get a new direction, right?
I thought that inspiration would instantaneously come to me, after I became a new person in Boston. I’d forget and leave everything that seemed wrong in my life behind, and start over where no one knew me.
But there’s a flaw in that reasoning. I got this internship based on my passion and devotion to my CSO and I’ll always be expressing those qualities-who I really am never changes.
My first few weeks went well even though I was a bit timid. But after I was continually overwhelmed with unconditional love from my co-workers and fellow interns, I rediscovered my true expressions. I was genuinely and comfortably able to better live as my true self. One of the other interns even told me that she could tell when I began living as the “real Kevin.”
The strange thing is that I didn’t have an instant realization of how to live a better and more fulfilling life. One day I just realized that I was living it. I wasn’t trying to hide things I wasn’t proud of, depressed about past mistakes, or attempting to express a perfect life on the surface. My inspiration came from the gradual process of knowing my true self-my spiritual self-and expressing that.
I think this happened because I became aware that I have always been expressing divine Truth, Life, and Love. I didn’t have to search for a new and inspiring way to live my life-my life is already worth living, I’m always expressing everything God created me with, and that helps me to live my life, confidently.
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Great blog. Like how you’re thinking this all through.
I always make lists of things to work on and change — to get that fresh start. But you’re reminding me that it’s important to appreciate who we really are already.
I’m so glad you re-discovered the “real” you, Kevin! Continually trusting God to lead us in the right direction is the key to life, and I think you have found that by expressing your God-given qualities, you can listen, trust, and act in whatever way you are led to. Keep up the spiritual growth and progress! :o)
I love how easily everyone can relate to this Kev; it really helps to show that realizing your true self comes so naturally, just through that continuous expression of love. I totally agree with Casey in saying that by knowing and trusting God in defining your path, you find such great peace and can really focus on all the good there is. Miss you!