Joining the party

by Kim Korinek

Do you ever feel like you are on the outside looking in? That there’s a big party going on, but you weren’t invited?

I have. But understanding more about who I am as a spiritual idea and a child of God turned it around for me.

It was in college when Christian Science really started kicking in—I started seeing that the beautiful truths about God and man (that God is our Father and Mother, Love, pure, consistent, and loving; and that we, as His/Her children are made in the image and likeness of God, therefore we are pure, consistent, and loving) are something that I could bank on, work from, and understand my world better in this context.

It wasn’t always like that, however. I was a regular reader of Christian Science magazines. Reading account after account of healings in these magazines, I started having this creepy feeling that everyone else was “getting it.” They were having these wonderful things happen to them—everyone,but me. Sometimes it felt like there was a carousel going around and I wasn’t on it.

What happened to me to change that? It would be an understatement to say I felt sad, lonely, and isolated. But even then I knew that I could still pray. I remember reading a sentence from Science and Health with Key to the Scriptures by Mary Baker Eddy, “Would existence without personal friends be to you a blank? Then the time will come when you will be solitary, left without sympathy….” This didn’t sound at all good to me. But then it picks up, “…but this seeming vacuum is already filled with divine Love.”

I realized that I had a bottom line and it was that I knew—without a doubt—that everyone has a connection to Love. Even though I hadn’t been actively feeling this, this idea resonated deep within me.

I reasoned that I could recognize that connection to Love any time. God, Love is always there. I felt that right then when I was feeling awfully lonely and out of it, was a good time to realize that connection.

My starting point was to know God and how I related to Him. I saw to a greater degree that in order to have God as Father, you needed to have a child. If there were no child, there would be no Father.

And if God is infinite, then there should be infinite ways in which He could be expressed. Could one of His ideas be removed? Well, no. Then it really wouldn’t be infinite. It would be as difficult to remove one of God’s infinite ideas as it would be to remove the number 154 from the numeric system.

You take away the number 154 and there goes your checking account, your Social Security number, your taxes, the accounting system, engineering is shot and the space program collapses. You get the picture.

Likewise, each one of us as God’s ideas is needed, included, and has a holy purpose far beyond what we can even fathom. I started reading the accounts of healing in those same Christian Science magazines from a different vantage point. I no longer read them and felt like I was coming up short spiritually.

I started seeing that in each story, I was being shown the vast possibilities of God’s goodness. Each healing I read was encouraging me to see that wonderful things are happening and that I am wrapped up in this loving adventure of life. I could expect that healing, rejuvenation, direction for my career, all of those things were right at hand, specially designed forme. The principles of God’s love were being proved and I was needed to join in.

We are closer to God as we are to our own breath. In fact, to say that we are God’s breath makes it even plainer. We are the verb to God’s noun and that forms a complete sentence. In other words, God and His children are never separated. And as God is All, each of us are always needed, always loved, and always included.

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